The "H" is "O" (the heat is ON!!!)

The Way Of Transformation.

The man who, being really on the way,
falls upon hard times in the world will not, as a consequence,
turn to that friend who offers him refuge and comfort, and encourages his old self to survive.
Rather, he will seek out someone who will faithfully and inexorably help him to risk himself,
so that he may endure the suffering and pass courageously through it,
thus making of it a "raft that leads to the far shore."

Only to the extent that man exposes himself over and over again to annihilation -
can that which is indestructible arise within him.

In this lies the dignity of daring. Thus the aim of practice is not to develop and attitude which allows a man
to acquire a state of harmony and peace wherein nothing can ever trouble him.

On the contrary, practice should teach him to let himself be assaulted, perturbed, moved, insulted, broken and battered.
That is to say it should enable him to dare to let go his futile hankering after harmony, surcease from pain and a comfortable life in order that he may discover-in doing battle with the forces that oppose him, that which awaits him beyond the world of opposites.

The first necessity is that we should have the courage to face life and to encounter all that is most perilous in the world.
Only if we venture repeatedly through the zones of annihilation can our inner light, our infinite potential, become ignited.

Why cant i sleep?

I met this girl in school... and whilst we were friends, we had our respective girlfriend and boyfriend. We were friends... and the 4 of us formed a project group... fast forward 6 mths...we got our diplomas and moved on with our lives. I started work in the family business and she interned before going back for her degree.

Me and my then gf were having problems and i wanted to end things... she came to me and told me that my ex had already gotten a new boyfriend (while trying to patch things up with me)... and that i should move on. I did.

From that incident, i thought she was a righteous person... we celebrated our birthday together and realized being around each other felt so right... shouldn't we be together as an item. We did... and for almost 4 years, we dated exclusively and despite my incessant traveling for work... my time consuming passions for music and photography - we were in love and most importantly... we were happy.

I was beside her every step of the way.... i watched her graduate... land her first job... go through 6 mths of probation and officially start work - my plan of waiting to see if she would change into a different person during her student/working adult transition seemed moot.

When i thought to myself earlier this year... about marriage and whether she was the one. I actually concluded, yes she was.
Little did i know... whilst being with me... she had been chatted up by a rather suave and promising young man (other then me)
...she developed feelings for him and hid them from me...

Long story short, they are together now... the guy blogs about how much he loves her... and i am secretly happy for them. She may have turned out to be a really long mistake... but i do know people who have undergone far worse - as my friends say... i should be glad i found out before i married her. I am.

Here i am sitting alone in a hotel room in causeway bay... thinking about stuff i know i should have let go. Thinking about how its gonna be next time i fall in love... how i am going to ensure i am happier then before...
Its hard to fall asleep with all this in my head.

Maybe if i store it in cyberspace. My mind can find peace.
I think if i put it out there... it cant find its way back to me.

Min.

Dusting off the old blog.

Ah well... last year i did the unthinkable and quit my family business... i've since tried out a stint in public relations and eventually found advertising. I've started a company with an old army friend - Lightmen Private Limited, dealing with LED lighting solutions and LED display panels. He plays the part of the engineering genius and i handle all aspects of marketing.

Last year in May i made my wish list... lets see what i've managed to accomplish..

Things i hope to achieve in no particular order:
1) Weight loss. with a time lapse video no less for that emotional victory. (umm.. not done)
2) Become a better Photographer. Learn more and shoot more pictures. (still not as good as i wanna be)
3) Become a better Guitarist. Learn more and play more guitar. (still not as good as i wanna be)
4) Start my own business. (Lightmen Private limited! woooot!)
5) Be Happy. (had my ups and downs... but happier overall!)

2/5 isn't what i would claim a personal victory. Im a little disappointed with myself.

Come to think about it... June 2009 till now (Feb 2010) has been a pretty kick ass journey.
I wouldn't have done anything differently. However i still do need to lose weight and improve my photography and musical skills. I still have around 3 months to set those in motion!!!!

thats it for this post and i'll leave with an inspiring quote.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others..." - Nelson Mandela


All of us are special in our own way - yes including you.


Min

Bossa Bossa the night away... then you throw that away and just make noise.

Jamming with Yvonne and Simon. You may notice im not really playing much, im just trying my best to ADD VALUE to the song - without spoiling it. Also cus i think more breathing space will allow the Simon's chords to come through better.
If i tried to bang out the chords with him, it would have ended the Bossafication.

Best part has to be where Simon uses the Heaven and Earth Green Tea bottle as a shaker with me giving the voiceover... it pretty realistic man..

Old video

How i spent my sunday afternoon.

2 Weeks since i handed in my Resignation.

Two weeks has passed.

Life is still as terrible because i am still stuck in a job i do not want to be in.

However, on the positive side ive found the zest to play more Djembe, Guitar and cook more. I have since been told my Grilled meats and my Japanese curry rice are, in short, DeliCiOus - great confidence booster. (Thank you judges)

Ive done away with most soft drinks. Only water and tea products (Green Tea or Teh Oh Ping Xiu Tai) ... i dont seem to miss coke or F&N grape etc too much, which is good!

Next up will be progressively reduce my food intake, be more selective in what i eat and actually get around to a fixed exercise regime.

I tried combining exercise and photography... 

so decided to walk around

and take pictures for an hour or two... but by the time i got home from work it was already 6.30pm and available light was diminishing quickly... so i walked around abit and finally resorted to driving to the seaside to capture these HDR shots.